Luck

I am an unlucky person. Just let me tell you that up front. I don't necessarily think this is a bad thing though, 'cause I know I have to work for what I want.

Whenever my sister and I would have to 'flip a coin' or 'draw straws' or whatever the fuck you do when you can't decide who's gonna do what, I would ALWAYS LOSE. It got to the point in my childhood and early adolescence that I'd just say fuck it and just start on with the shitty job instead of the easy one, just 'cause I knew it was pointless to actually 'rock paper scissor' it. I knew I'd lose.

And its not that I just think like a loser, and therefore am a loser. I have a great attitude, for the most part. I'm generally a positive person, and I like being a positive influence on the people in come into contact with on each given day. But I know I have bad luck in games of chance. I can walk into a casino on the arm of someone, and that person will win a million dollars. But I can't win myself. I'm a decent card player, I know tricks, how to read the deck, and I'm confident - all three good qualities to be a super card player that SHOULD win. But I don't.